What do you do when you're the ultimate oxymoron?

I have been wrestling with this question for a long time now. I really am the ultimate oxymoron, not the only one, but definitely I am one. I am an evangelical, Reagan conservative, Republican, and oh yeah, I am gay also. Most of the time I just don't fit it and I am still trying to find my place. I don't fit in at church because I have been able to reconcile my faith and my sexuality. I don't fit in to the gay community here, what there is of it. So I guess since I don't have a place to fit in, I need to make my own. So that is what I am in the process of doing now.